Update Sue

[suzanne sanders]

Today, as I walk around outside, it amazes me how wonderful it smells outside after a long rain. I am grateful for today's rain, it's sweet smell is so intoxicating. It fits the mood, and brings calmness to my soul.

Today, I have many thoughts, most seem to be about my accident last December. I have a few things I am having to work endlessly on.   Today there is frustration, there are tears, there is patience,  and I am grateful.   It amazes me you can feel all of that, within a 30 seconds or less time, off and on for a few hours.  There are times I am tired, there are times I wish I could go back in time, there are times that I wish, I wish, I wish I wish.... 

I push along with chronic pain in my neck, shoulders, upper back and especially my collarbone.  I have to take it easy off and on and then there is my mouth...

 

 

My belief system is so different from so many, it makes it hard. Hard for all who are in involved.   For me it requires, keeping strength, a strength that requires no weakened thoughts. I am forever reminding myself of mind over matter and if I had the faith of a mustard seed, and really any seed. My mind is not far enough outside the box.

As I continue on the road of healing I will add new things and come up with a different plan. I can see my mom, pointing at my head, saying it is all here. Just believe.

Thank you all who have been patient with me and supported me, I am forever grateful. Thank you family, I love you  Here is to planting another seed....