Finding Strength

[suzanne sanders]

The last couple of months I have had these different reactions to chemical enviroments. Each reaction was getting a little bit worse. The last one was the worst. Having MCS has change my life in so many extreme ways. I have become a recluse to stay alive. I have lost most of my friendships due to them not calling me to go do anything and me not calling them because I was too afraid and too sick to go. This last year has been my best for getting better so at the same time I have felt more confident in going out. So, I had taken the kids shopping for their needs and in the past I would wait in the car while they shopped. (Heck on Fourth of July I sit in the van with all the windows up). These last few months I have gone in with them. It is obvious my body is not ready for that and maybe never will be. The last reaction was swollen tongue and lymph nodes which was not fun. Spring is a beautiful time of the year and I wish I could really enjoy it more. The problem is it is the same time people spray massive chemicals. Every time I drive in from know till the end of fall I will see farmers spraying their fields, city's spraying where the children play, cities spraying every crack in the cement they can find at the park, cities spraying around all the trees at the park, the county spraying the road ways, business spraying every crack, chemical fertilizers on the grass the kids play soccer on, softball on, football on (unless the have cancer turf). Now that it is almost spring the weather starts slowly warming up so with the increase of warmth, peoples laundry soaps off gas more, dryer sheets off gas more, perfume off gases more, cologne off gases more it's like the suns out so people bath in their scents. Monday was a tough day for me. I was getting ready to teach class and the perfume that day was the worst it has been in a very long time. I found myself laughing and playing with the kids and wanting to cry and get out of there. After class I left right away and hung out with my daughter Raquel who also is a great friend, she let me vent, it was great. The next day I had my Doctors appointment had a few tears, talked about trying some new test that could come up with some more solutions to help my body fight harder. I find lately I am full of anger because I just can't understand why people are so willing to put so many petroleum products on their body, in their yards and in their foods, it's pure posion to them, me and the earth. I have had to work so hard to get Sue back and I am not losing myself again! So on that note I am still walking up the hill, the last few have been hard, but because I am a very strong willed person I can make myself go and thank god for that! I tell myself this is my curse but it is my gift. Lately it has been hard to think about how this could be a gift. I do know the answer to that but there is a little bit of a dark cloud with me. I am reaching for strength and starting to see some light. But like I said this is the time of year that makes me sad. So I am asking all of you to think about what posions you have in your life and is it worth it to use it when it causes sickness like cancer? Makes people like me sick? I ask all of you to challenge yourself to not use posions in your life. Ask your city, county,colleges, (Linfield sprays everywhere also), friends and family to get rid of herbicides like Round up, pesticides, funicides, dryer sheets, petroluem based laundry soap, perfumes, etc. I am sure you got the picture. Educate yourself and read labels. Look at your shampoo do you really know what is in it? Nail polish? Hair color? By changing your life in this direction you will make yourself heathier and the enviroment.
Goals for this year:
Still walking and running up hill - Still on task
Demo Team workout, still on task
Forms need to get back on task

Finding strength -YES

[Cathe Frederic]

wow Sue! I have felt a small amount of the same feelings as you. Why can't I eat things that are wholesome to other people? (I have celiac and a few other food sensitivities) If I eat a slice of sprouted, organic, home made,whole grain bread I will pay for three days at least! And I say, but, but, these things are supposed to be good for me. Alas I am afraid due the the systemic destruction of our environment and the gentic roll of the dice, some of us are destined to work harder at maintain health than others. I get so tired of people thinking I am some kind of hypochondriac. But, on the other hand, I won't end up in a residiential care facility at the age of 60 like some of the people I have cared for in those. I am researching MCS now and I will let you know if I find something interesting for you. There is also the possiblility of amino acid metabolic disturbances causing your condition. I will be researching that as well. Hugs to you!

[suzanne sanders]

Thank you Stephanie so much for your words. Knowing how you and the people around you are thinking about it and changing things in their lives brings tears to my eyes and gives me more strength. This post came at a great time, it seems I am living off of anger lately and this made my heart smile. These last few weeks I have been living with the mind set that it is a curse but this tells me it is also a gift. Thank you