When Life Throws You A Curveball

[suzanne sanders]

Well, Life threw me a curve ball

I can either duck, be hit, go with it, get stuck or wallow in sorrow...

I have chosen to go with it and walk the path that life just  lined out for me.   Struggle with it, but not sink, fight but not give up, get tangled up but cut through it, yep that is my plan.   Has it been easy?  Heck No and double Heck NO.  But, I am a born fighter....

When it first happened, that big curve ball, I immediately thought of when I was getting ready to get in the ring and have a full contact kickboxing match.    Actually my first thought was f...ck!   This can't be happening.    Then, I thought shit, I need to train my mind hard for this one and honestly, sometimes that is why we are thrown the curve ball.   We can either grow from our experiences or well let's not go there..... 

Today I felt it was time to blog about what is going on with Sue... Honestly when I write it is therapeutic for me.  It is like a purge of emotions, I feel better and sometimes I work through something that I did not see until it was blogged about.  

When I first logged on I thought I would browse and check out what others have been doing.  Then I came across Rachel's last status.  It said at the end of her post  Grateful.   That is one of the first things we should all think  and feel at the rise of our day.    Just feeling grateful at the rise of your day, sets that pace.  I am thankful to be reminded to be grateful.  Thank you Rachel.  

Here is my curve ball and before I go into details, let me just say that I am going to slam that curve ball, because that is what you do when it is thrown at you.   

The last week of February, I broke my front tooth.   No big deal to some, but a big deal for me.  

I'll go back a little further.  

On December 28th 2013, I was involved in a serious horse accident.  The horse stomped my face and knocked my front tooth all the way out, my other front tooth was hanging and some of my other left side teeth were, well I was not sure at the time where they where.  The roof of my mouth was fractured and I needed stitches.  There were minor injuries to my body.   I had a super great dentist that came in on his day off and put me all back together. 

Just over three years later, the front tooth that was knocked out completely decided to leave with a bang.     

It is a big bang.  But first this is where the word Grateful needs to come in.  I am so totally gratefully that all my other teeth and bones in my mouth are awesome.   Back to the bang, the curve ball, the abrupt end to my friendship with my front tooth.   I say friendship because I have focused a lot of energy on that tooth for the last three years.   But it was just time to start a whole new path.  This path as lead me to some different directions that I was afraid to take three years ago.  

One is I now have a really cool Holistic Dentist.  There was nothing wrong with the awesome dentist that helped me after my accident, it is just that he is not a holistic dentist and he retired.   One of the big reasons I needed a holistic dentist is that I have Multiple Chemical Sensitivity.  Me and dental products could be like putting Kryptonite on Superman.   I have also learned that you can have a bio-compatibility test done.  Which means that I have now been tested to see what they can actually use on me, so I don't shut down like Superman with Kryptonite.    

Grateful for that... 

Back to my new path.  

I had a 3D cone scan done. 

Revealed my tooth's root was broken in a few pieces in my gums.  Oh My... And I had no bone in that spot, oh boy... 

Next:  Extraction that turned into surgery.  Yep dug right up to my noise.  Let me tell you, the nerves in that area are, well just Wow! 

Due to my chemical sensitivity, the surgery has left me exhausted.  It has taken a little longer than I expected and this is why I need to take a healing sabbatical.   But, I already know how to deal with this process.   Be a turtle with your movement, but never quit.   

I have been using massive herbs and I went threw that processes without any narcotics.  I actually burned the prescription.  Herbs just rock and I love plant medicine.  I am grateful for the plants that have helped heal me.  

So now I talk like Mike Tyson.   I am not ready to have conversations face to face with people other than my family.  

The last stitches left yesterday.  

I need a few bone grafts, a gum graft (fun) and I need to go to a specialist for this.  Recommended by my Holistic Dentist.  Dr. Matz.  Grateful for him.   

Due to my chemical sensitivity, I need to take a healing sabbatical for about 4 to 6 months.  Which means more nature and less cities...  

I am forever grateful for my wonderful superman in my life, my awesome husband and your sifu.  The man rocks.   

So right now I am training my mind, like I was going back into the ring.  My life is going to be a bit different for a few months, but. I will win this one.   

I have added some tiny movement back into my life and I will increase it as my energy picks up.  

I walked our step hill one time

Front kicks, side kicks, wheel kicks, straight leg kicks, push-ups, dips, lunges and sumo squats in reps of 10's.  

I movement will vary according to how I am feeling.  As I feel better I will increase it.  When I have another surgery I will take care of myself and again slowly added it back in.

After all, My motto is "Just Keep Moving".... 

My favorite quotes for today. 

You May Be Up Against a Giant Today

But Don't Focus On How Big Your Giant Is

Focus On How Big Your Inner Power Is 

Your Never Know How Strong Your Are 

Until Being Strong Is The Only Choice You Have

 Keep close to Nature's heart... and break clear away, once in awhile, and climb a mountain or spend a week in the woods. Wash your spirit clean.

John Muir

[Rachel Hayward]

Sue, you inspire me to no ends. I am so grateful (smile) to have you in my life, to be a soundboard for herbal regimens, and to inspire me to never quit. And to trust myself. I hope that nature is a balm and strength, that our herbal friends continue to aid in your healing, and that your spirit finds nourishment and mojo. You got this. 

[David Gardner]

Sue,

You are a real fighter and so strong. I'm proud to call you friend. Positive thoughts and healing energy energy coming your way.